A jumbled-mix Wednesday…

At one end, I look at the children’s sweet faces and smile…loving their honest and genuine selves, burps and all. At the other end, I know I’ve come to realise that the work is taking a toll on me – on my health and my time.

At one end, I know that it’s all about God’s perfect timing for Bren and I to have children of our own… Yet at the other end, I see how easy it seems for other couples to have their precious babies, and wonder – when, Lord? When?

Today has been a day filled with so much confirmation about His direction for me, this new season that I’m entering… But in the midst of all these, I sometimes get lost in the tendency to doubt and question, especially when I know it’s easier to not face His direction, and instead appease the people around me.

Whatever it is, I take heart and give thanks that my Lord, my dear Heavenly Father loves me and adores me. He is listening as I cry my heart out to Him, and not one tear escapes His Hand. I’m thankful that I can be honest with my feelings, yet surrender my need to understand…for only He is God, not me.

As long as His presence is with me…that’s all I seek. For in His presence is fullness of joy. Everlasting joy. 🙂

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A sweet Tuesday…

Bren just went down to buy toothpaste, while I’m relishing the sweet fellowship I’d with my work gals tonight. Bren and I managed to catch a bit of a good HongKong show that we love to watch together too.

It’s the seemingly tiny things like these that tug at my heart strings.

Very sweet. Very, very thankful 🙂

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July 23rd

The day I stepped out in faith in a major decision made.

Lord, I need You to open the way for me. Though it may look impossibly challenging, I trust that You’ll lead me through.

Now…to enjoy the long weekend. 🙂

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Taipei: Day 4 & 5

19/7

10:19am
“Popcorns for breakfast. Tsk tsk.” 

That was from Bren. Haha…such an indulgence for me. Well, I don’t think it’s good to let the huge tub go to waste. 

Bren is taking in the clothes now while I type this. Am thankful. 😀

Wonder what we’ll be doing…or where we’ll be going today. 

3:55pm 
At Taipei 101 now, and the view is pretty amazing. Reminds me of how big the world is…and how tiny we really are.

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6:17pm
Fruitful and fun time today. Walked a lot…hopefully walked off a bit of the bubble tea and beef noodles that we love and can’t stop enjoying ! 

20/7

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4:55pm

On the flight back now…so many lovely memories to relish over. Thank You Lord. 🙂

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Taipei: Day 3

18/7

4:32pm
Didn’t sleep well last night. Woke up abruptly at midnight, and in my sleepy state, Bren whispered to me about the Malaysian Airlines’ very tragic incident. Couldn’t quite sleep after that. Was so shocked and heartbroken…and was reminded of how fragile life is, and how we truly are in the end-times. Only God fully understands what’s happening, and I take heart that He cries with us. We’re never alone in our pain. 

Made me think a lot about the decisions I make and how it impacts the people around me, especially my loved ones. Bren has been talking about how I’m recently very tired by the time I’m back from work, and how we don’t get much time to catch up with each other these days cos our work week is just too demanding. Makes me sad realizing that…and as much as I try, a lot of it is beyond my control. 

But with the stark and painful reminder of how precious life is (oh, how many times does God need to remind me this year…), I’m slowly taking brave steps of faith towards building a better, healthier lifestyle that suits this season of our lives. Both of us desire children of our own, and if we continue in this state of busy-ness, with not much time for each other…how are we going to be parents who have time for our children? 

No idea how exactly things are going to pan out, but we’d a long talk this morning about my career, my health, and our need to support and trust in God’s purposes. Step by step. Baby steps most of the time…and sometimes I scurry backwards when pressure mounts…but thank God for His grace that guides me back to His path. 

We watched Planet of the Apes in the afternoon, and are now chilling out before our visit to Shilin Night Market. Going to treasure these moments together…because for many in that plane…sigh, my heart goes out to them & their loved ones. 

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Taipei: Day 2

17/7

10:25am
Can’t believe we’re still snuggling at this time, haha. If not for my alarm at 8am, I’m not sure what time we’ll be awake. :p

Loving this chill-out pace. Bren is thinking of his bubble-tea again…

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6:40pm
Weather is really hot. We bought an umbrella just to shield ourselves (okay, more for me) from the blazing hot sun. Needless to say, it justified Bren’s craving for another good cup of cold bubble tea. 

Enjoying just being together and doing simple things (like looking for the washroom, haha) together. It’s been really nice so far, and am thankful. 🙂

It’s great that we want similar things, and love a slow, unfrenetic pace of traveling. Makes it so easy to enjoy…and savor different blessings that come along. No rush, no agenda…we always say, we’ll go with the flow…deciding where to go only in the spur of the moment. Makes it a lot more fun, and with a lot less unnecessary pressure coming from expectations of what a holiday should be too. Love him.

Reminisced about our junior college days, when we first met, and how far we’ve come along. It’s always astounding how much we’ve grown, and I firmly credit it all to our good, gracious, loving Heavenly Father. Thankful for the many things we’ve learnt about each other, and for His mercy upon us. Through every painful period, challenging conversation, and all the ungodly beliefs we held about each other, God’s love covered them all, tiding us through the many years of tearing each other apart with our words…and bringing something absolutely beautiful out of all the ugliness. That’s our powerful God in action. 😉

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