At one end, I look at the children’s sweet faces and smile…loving their honest and genuine selves, burps and all. At the other end, I know I’ve come to realise that the work is taking a toll on me – on my health and my time.
At one end, I know that it’s all about God’s perfect timing for Bren and I to have children of our own… Yet at the other end, I see how easy it seems for other couples to have their precious babies, and wonder – when, Lord? When?
Today has been a day filled with so much confirmation about His direction for me, this new season that I’m entering… But in the midst of all these, I sometimes get lost in the tendency to doubt and question, especially when I know it’s easier to not face His direction, and instead appease the people around me.
Whatever it is, I take heart and give thanks that my Lord, my dear Heavenly Father loves me and adores me. He is listening as I cry my heart out to Him, and not one tear escapes His Hand. I’m thankful that I can be honest with my feelings, yet surrender my need to understand…for only He is God, not me.
As long as His presence is with me…that’s all I seek. For in His presence is fullness of joy. Everlasting joy. 🙂