28 weeks!

Our little darling is growing so well, I’m now into my 28th week. πŸ™‚ 

Very thankful for an uneventful and relatively easy pregnancy so far, one that has been so joy-filled too. And praise God that my gynae said my placenta is now in a better position! 

  
Her sleeping position actually reminds me a bit of how her Daddy sleeps! πŸ˜†

Good enough, right now :)

Though there are still many aspects of my life which I am praying about and hoping that they will be better, I know that on many levels, things are already going on very, very well. 

I remind myself to not lose sight of the present blessings, and not to miss out on enjoying things – as they are. 

Like the spontaneous meet-up with mummywords over desserts this week, where she also blessed me with yummy cupcakes! Such a treat. πŸ™‚

  
I can honestly say that, things are really good enough – right now. πŸ’•

A potential social worker? :)

Bren has been chatting with baby pretty much every night for the past months. She has been very cute in responding, even when we ask questions. Keeping silent at times, giving a kick back at other times. 

Last night, it was hilarious playing the “kick game” with her. We would tap somewhere around my womb, wait a few seconds and then she would kick back at the same area in response. We did this a few times in the same area, then tapped other areas to see if she would move to kick there too. Sometimes she does, sometimes it doesn’t happen. πŸ™‚

Bren also asked her last night about what she would want to do in the future. 

Become a doctor? No response.

Become a lawyer? Nope, no response.

Become an IT consultant like Daddy? Still no response.

Become a social worker like Mummy? An immediate big kick!! 

I was so tickled I started laughing uncontrollably, whereas Bren got worried immediately and told her that social workers don’t earn a lot of money. πŸ˜† He later assured her that she still has many years before making that decision, haha! That’s my silly husband and sweet little baby. It’ll be so funny to see how things pan out years down the road!

Anyway, I visited my ex-colleagues and the Centre’s children this week. Was so nice to catch up with them again. πŸ™‚

   
 

Have a great day everyone! Baby sends her love to you too. 😍 {she’s moving vigorously as I type this, haha}

Choose what you focus on

A friend who just delivered her baby boy shared with me this morning on how he has not passed the hearing test twice. He will be tested again when he turns 1 month. Can you kindly whisper a prayer for him too? That baby J’s ears will open up in the Name of Jesus and have perfect hearing very soon. 

It reminds me to meditate on God’s Truth, and to cover our baby in prayers too. 

Hannah Whitall Smith in “The Christian’s Secret of a Happy Life” shares these gems: 

Begin to believe, and hold on it steadfastly, that He has taken that which you have surrendered to Him. You positively must not wait to feel either that you have given yourself, or that God has taken you. You must simply believe it, and reckon it to be the case. And if you are steadfast in this reckoning, sooner or later the feeling will come.

 Surrendering the situation unto You, Lord…

 
Thank you for praying! 

Never say the “D” word

Few years back, Carol shared with me about how we should view marriage, and after going through the past 5 years with Bren, I can convincingly say that she’s right. So, very right. 

What she shared that morning is still very vivid in my mind – it was on how married couples should never allow themselves to think or even say the word “divorce”. Of course, this doesn’t necessarily apply to couples in prolonged abusive relationships. That context is a different story altogether, and is not what I’m referring to here. But in general – and after living it out – it makes a lot of sense. 

When tough times hit, Bren and I choose to stick it out. We may argue and have our strong opinions and differences, but never once do we allow ourselves the option of getting out. 

Issues may arise from petty matters, or very important life-changing decisions, but as long as we never ever mention the “D word”, we are then motivated towards making the best out of every situation, and at the end of the day, can always calmly come to an agreement, or agree to disagree on certain matters without affecting our relationship negatively. 

I can safely say that this was one of the best marriage advice given to us, ever

I believe that love is a choice, and a commitment that is not to be taken lightly. It does not flow according to our whims and fancies, and definitely not according to how we feel. 

Marriage is to be honored and dearly respected, and ultimately, it is a sanctifying process for our holiness, not to make our individual selves happy. It is unconditional love and faithfulness to each other that allows a marriage to be strengthened, and in this day and age where divorces are rampant, it is such an important reminder for any of us – to choose to love, no matter what

Choose to honor what you’ve vowed to do for the rest of your life

Married life is never perfect, but I’m so incredibly thankful that we get the choice to still choose to love it. πŸ™‚

{we’d our favorite ice-cream @ IKEA while getting items for baby’s nursery over the weekend!} 

Celebrating God’s faithfulnessΒ 

How has your weekend been? πŸ™‚

In honor of what God did, I had a little time of celebration with Him. 

In the quiet and loving presence of Jesus, my smallness is not just never an issue, but it is the very reason that brings my heart to its knees, knowing that my big and powerful Almighty Father cares about every tiny detail of my “small life”. What a privilege it is to call Him my Father.

So I brought myself to my happy place – the Botanical Gardens, and soaked in the sun rays and the beautiful sights. 

  
I also did a little pampering of the soul – with pretty earrings {that I don’t need, but really adore!}, a handcream that smells absolutely refreshing, and then enjoyed some me-time with a lemon tart at a quiet cafe. I even bumped into little Chloe when I was admiring the sunset @ Vivo, where she plucked ixoras for me, and told me it’s getting dark, haha!

  
And that concluded my little celebration! 🌺

What can you celebrate today? πŸ˜‰

It is in the remembrance, that thanksgiving overflows…

1 year ago, this day – 23 July 2014, I received the assurance from God that He is still with me, directing my every step as I faithfully follow Him into the unknown. 

::Turning back the clock a bit – to 17 July 2014. It was that night in Taipei that after learning of the news of the MH17 plane crash from Bren, that my heart knew – it really was a deep-down knowing – that something has to change. 

My life was not exactly horrible, but it was definitely the most stressful year I’d experienced, and my first thought when I learnt about the crash was, “if any of my loved ones were in that plane, I’d totally regret how I’m living my life right now.” I would regret many things, but most importantly, I would have regretted not spending much time with them because my schedule then was so consumed by work and other seemingly urgent matters. 

I couldn’t sleep that night, and tossed and turned for a long while before giving up and listening to the prompting from God to read my emails instead. {my personal emails, not work emails πŸ˜‰}

So I clicked, and guess what the title was? “Today is the day to go after your dreams.”

Remembering it right now still gives me the chills. 

I told God, “well, You know my dream. All I desire is to be a mum, a stay-home mum. To have children and to take good care of them.

That night marked the start of this journey of faith in following Him into directions that didn’t make sense to people around me, but was clearly impressed upon my heart. That very night, He convicted me to leave my job in Feb 2015, with me not knowing when I’ll even ever conceive. All I knew and held onto was His Word and my relationship with Him. 

On 22 July 2014, once I was back in S’pore and back to work, I told my immediate boss my convictions, and of course she was puzzled and disturbed by it. What followed was a long period of awkwardness, and a lot of wrestling and trusting all mashed up while I was trying to survive the day-to-day. 

But God continued to be good, and assured me through a devotional calendar on 23 July 2014:

Really, anything we hold tighter than we do Christ is a security blanket. And it’s possible that, instead of just providing comfort and safety, those blankets are really holding us down. I’m committing to letting go of some of these security blankets – & reaching for God. Even when it scares me.”

It scared me many times, and it was uncomfortable having people misunderstand me. But I’m so thankful for His grace that saw me through it.

Fast foward back to today – 23 July 2015, with baby being 26 weeks now, God is still faithfully reassuring me:

  
God has always known. God is ultimately sovereign. πŸ™‚ 

In sharing this part of my story with you, dear friends, I’m simply praying that you will see how real God really is. 

Faith is a beautiful thing, but it’s not how the world works, and so sometimes it’s hard to understand…it’s hard to put a finger on it. 

But I’m still choosing to boldly sharing this with you, trusting that God is already working in your heart, and in His perfect timing, you’ll truly be touched by how real Jesus is, and how much He desires to have an intimate relationship with you. 

{as I’m typing this, baby is moving so vigorously! she is probably saying, yes – believe in Him! He is my Creator! 😍}

p/s: if you missed out on reading how our sweet miracle baby came about, you can click HERE for my testimony shared in church.

Bless you. πŸ’–