Thanksgiving for January :)

  
It was a bumpy start of the year for me, mainly because of physical discomfort from breastfeeding issues. Had to go for surgery in mid-Jan, and it was crazy pain. πŸ˜– But! God’s grace amazingly saw me through the ordeal, and I was honestly just looking foward to quickly having it sorted so I could finally have a genuine sense of a “brand new year”…a “fresh start”. 

I love a blank slate. πŸ™‚ It represents so much. 

New dreams, new possibilities, new hopes, new mercies every morning from my good Lord. 

And Ellie has settled into a more stable routine now, and smiles a lot at people she’s familiar with. It’s such a joy to see. She’s quite a chatty little one too, and babbles a lot especially during nap time, haha. 

So thankful for the new things that God is working in my heart about, and I’m looking foward to seeing how this 2016 turns out to be. πŸ’ͺπŸ»πŸ’–

Let’s have a fun and blessed year ahead! 

3 months!Β 

  
Has it been a quarter already?? I sometimes get flashbacks of our first few days with Ellie, and am always amazed at how much we’ve gone through with her. Each aspect of motherhood is so sanctifying, and my heart has never been the same ever since we first got the chance to lay eyes on our sweet baby. 

Every day holds new adventures with this little one, even if the daily routine remains the same. Night feeds hold precious memories of us semi-awake and stumbling around, trying our best to meet her needs. The breastfeeding journey has not been easy nor smooth sailing too, but the rewards are plenty. 

I can only imagine it gets better from here, each month sweeter than the last. πŸ™‚

😘😘 May your weekend hold intangible treasures too, with just the right amount of breathing space for you to stop yourself and soak it all in… Let’s stop the busy, let’s pay attention. 

No more rushing past smiles and giggles. Let’s stop and pay closer attention. Because before we know it, February will be turning up at our door. 

//+praying this article ministers to someone: “When God’s Answer Is Not What We Expected

May we learn to trust God more each day, for He is our Creator, and the One who holds it all. 

Guilt-free snuggling

  
It had been a while since the last time she fell asleep on me. 

There was a period of fussiness that Ellie went through in the first and second month, which led us to rock her to sleep in order that she got the rest she needed. It was tiring, but she was still so young and we did it in order to survive the days, haha. 

When she started cooing and babbling in the middle of her second month though, I could sense that she had the ability to understand us a little better and she was now more secure too, so we decided to try transitioning her slowly back to sleeping in her cot, on her own. It went seamlessly! πŸ™‚ 

I was definitely thankful and happy because it meant I could have more time to settle household chores, cook, read, and have my pumping sessions more frequently. However, there was also a tinge of sadness that the days of the past were over – just like that. Gratitude and wistfulness co-existed in that moment. 

One evening, she was crying for more milk – possibly because of her growth spurt period – so I fed her. She ended up sleeping on me right after. My first thought was to hold her upright for a few minutes before laying her back to sleep on the cot. 

But while holding her, I stumbled onto a few mummies’ comments through a forum on how we should just treasure the times that our babies fall asleep in our arms, because they really grow up so quickly. My heart resonated so much with that. 

Suddenly, all those guilty feelings of “should I be doing this? should I be holding her to sleep? will she get used to this and fuss when she doesn’t get it next time, and others will point it to my fault?“……just left me, especially when I realised how much I need to remain in each present moment to receive the gifts that God desires to give me. 

And that includes the heartwarming gift of having my sweet baby fall asleep on me.

So…

I placed my phone down. 

I held her snug-tight.

I propped my pillows into a nice, comfy position.

And I just held her…guilt-free, with no fear of spoiling her…no fear of what others may say. 

I held her knowing that this too will pass, and when it’s all gone, I’ll be very sorry I missed it. 

I closed my eyes, and we just slept together. 

Till Bren came home after work. 

It is now one of the sweetest moments locked in my memories of motherhood. 

Absolutely no regrets. πŸ˜‰

//just out of curiosity, how was it like for all you mummies reading this? Did you have the same struggle? Were your babies easy to put to sleep from the start? Would love to hear from you!

whispers for your weekendΒ 

Few days back, I walked away from Ellie for a short while during her playtime, and when I came back, I found her half-unbuckled, grinning away! πŸ˜… 

Had to take a picture to show her papa, haha. 

  
May your weekend be full of lovely surprises and pleasant memories. May you soak in His presence each hour and receive the love He so desires to lavish upon you. 

Even if your days are harder than you think you can bear, may you be reminded that you are never truly alone. He promises to go through this journey with us, friends. 

  
May all of us spur one another on to just.take.one.more.step.

Together. πŸ’—

whispers for your weekendΒ 

I’m a little late, but here’s Ellie wishing you a wonderfully blessed weekend! 

  
May there be light, comforting moments for you this weekend. 🌾

May you catch glimpses of beauty in the broken, and relish the unwavering love of Jesus for your soul. 

May you experience a deeper understanding of how much God adores you. Because friend, He really does. πŸ™‚

+chicken soup in this rainy weather for you? See HERE. 🍲 Enjoy!

😴

It’s the middle of the night, and Ellie is getting back to sleep after fussing for a bit. She’s pretty much my alarm clock these days. πŸ˜‰ 

Love this fishball-face.

  
Blessed day y’all! ✌🏻️